Toughts.

I thought it would not be that easy. It really shouldn't be that easy. But it is.
That makes me think (oh right..like I don't always think..)..
First thing: Why am I doing this..huh..not that difficult question, is it? I think partly boredom, partly wanting to know about it, try it out. And then there's the thought that i could get myself more numb (or number? haha..more numb, right?) by that so that what others do won't hurt me so much. Because what they can do I can do much better. I always could. So. And how about giving guys a warning like that? I think it's fair. Though I'm scared about the first who will notice it.
Next thing: If that is so easy..the next step shouldn't be very difficult. I mean..it should. But I don't think it is.
Make me think if I really am considering it..and when I would be at a point considering it..would I take it that far?
A lot to think about and so little motivation to do so.