Healing.?

Am I?
I a way I am. In another I'm not. And in the way that matters most I really don't know.

Fact is, I am very insecure. I have not many people that I call very good friends. I have some I would like to call that but then again I'm not shure if they even like me or just putting up with me. And then talk behind my back about how needy I am and how annoying. And even if they don't talk about it they could think that and dislike me.
I need reassurance. I really need that. Problem is I also have problems believing if they would say so. They would need to prove it. And I really don't know how they could possibly do that.

Damn. My head is spinning and doing some pretty shitty things..I should go to bed.
Good night to all of you out there.



Edit: And no. He didn't want me at all. It seemed that I misunderstood something.
I really think it's everyone's own business if they want to be an asshole or not. But if they do so I would like them to stay the fuck away from me. And if you don't want to know about me then don't go out with me, fucking asshole.